May 12, 2012

Birth Mother's: You are Loved Today and Everyday

I mean it. You are not invisible! Someone sees you...
(Ive written so much over the years. This is a copy and paste sorta job and I hope it makes sense. I mean every word. Love, Brooke (birth mom missions)

Birth Mom Missions has all sorts of things planned for Birth mom's "weekend" like every year. We want you to know you are loved throughout the whole day and every other day too. So something will always be going on (via the facebook) Like you weill receive emails or surprises and you can talk ANYTIME of the day you want to a birthmother 1 or 100 on a community call. Radio show tonight to remind you and the world what tomorrow is. And that we don't (I dont) think I am too cool so I want my own day. The day, for me, is a chance for my daughter to know (wherever she is) that her bmom loved her enough to require an extra day just for her love.

I know you still remember
On that April Day
When you gave birth to me
and had to walk away
I know it is not because
You did not care for me
You only wanted what was best
And that is how it had to be
It takes a very strong person
To give a child away
Doing what is right for the child
No matter what others might say
I think of you often
And wonder who you are
If I will ever know you
And if I am up to par
I hope to get the chance
To talk to you some day
I have so many questions
So many things to say
I want you to know that I love you
And I always will
I hope to have the opportunity
To tell you how I feel
All I can hope for
Is that you feel the same way
Please do not turn away from me
And not hear what I have to say
I promise to honor
whatever you choose
I have to take a chance and find you
what have I got to lose
Poem to my Birthmom by Patti Vinsison
Changing the face of adoption, Cherishing life, & Supporting women... one birth mom at a time!!

The mission touches the lives of those adopted, adoptive parents, hopeful adoptive parents, pregnant woman at risk, and the unborn and other parts of society in ways yet to be seen.

Some background: It seems that the grief which results from adoption loss more often follows a pattern which is the exact opposite of what one might expect in the case of other losses. From my research, I have made certain conclusions on the grief associated with adoption loss, based on my own experience, the experiences of the women I have encountered and the books on grief and grief counseling which I have read. It became obvious to me that the common models of grief counseling would not work with mothers who had lost children through adoption. I concluded that the grief resulting from the loss of a child through adoption was fundamentally different from other types of grief. I explored grief associated with abortion, with stillbirth and neo-natal death and with loss of custody. Although there were some similarities, it seemed that adoption grief was unique.
This disenfranchised grief is when the grief is connected with a loss which cannot be openly acknowledged, publicly mourned or socially supported. In many cases of disenfranchised grief, the relationship is not recognized, the loss is not recognized or the griever is not recognized. The loss of a child through adoption is usually a loss which cannot be openly acknowledged, which is why mothers often suffer in silence...people who have experienced any type of loss often feel anger, guilt, sadness, depression, hopelessness and numbness and that in cases of disenfranchised grief, these feelings can persist for a very long time. The lack of recognition of their grief often results in them holding on to it more tenaciously than they might otherwise have done.

The Mission has many goals and many projects this is just a tiny part of the overall mission to help women, love children, and protect life. Women pre and post adoption as our main focus. Adoption in general is a word thrown around by politicians and pro-life groups as a save all solution (there is no save all solution to anything in life though) we want to save the women and the child from the choice of abortion (not for us but for them long-term) So I stand here to say that even a child conceived in rape is not justification for abortion (giving live is actually what healed me from the rape more than anything) We spread awareness of pre-eclampesia and other diseases that affect the mother (I had a bad case and we almost died, but still no reason to kill her.. she just cam out a little bit earlier than planned) so basically no topic is taboo for us. We want that to be how it is for everyone in the world concerning everything. If we don't admit something happened we can never work towards healing or peace. Adoption is a beautiful and also tragic thing and anyone that cares will see both aspects of any adoption. Someone is leaving and someone is coming together. Its bittersweet. It can be less bitter with more communication and less "whatever you call it" between mother's. No one "owns" a child, your just lucky enough to have there presence for a while. There is no jealousy in love and therefore adoptive moms have no excuse (if they have fears thats OK, as long as they confront and ask about them) No Birth Mother wants to take a baby (they placed) away from you and they can't if they tried. So why in the world would you not want your child to be loved by as many people as possible? The more the merrier! What is a "godmother" for anyway? Society has a wound that needs healing, and that wound is called "adoptions of the past" the situation was worse in the 60's and 70's and some off those affected are still hurting. I know that from talking with other AP's (that are caring and want to help) that hearing thank you from another aP is the next best thing to hearing it from your own. Same goes for children who have said that by me talking with them it has helped them fill the void of the mother they will never know (due to death or birth records lost) That's all for now! Please Please Please look around you for someone who needs a hug right now. (If it's you, then maybe we can help you somehow... at & the other mediums we have) Thanks from another invisible woman for just reading this.What also make us unique form other charities or missions is that actual birth mother's founded it and run it (basically just a few of us who do this when not at there day job) Adoption agencies each in so much money it is ridiculous. The agency I used, gladney, they fundraise millions of dollars for "birth mother support post adoption" but we have never seen or heard of any support ever coming from them. So next time you see an adoption fundraiser, just check who is behind it... because just because it uses the word "adoption" in it they know it will give the donor warm fuzzies about it. One goal is to see someday that every birthmother have another birthmother (a bit farther along) by her side at every major event and decision within the adoptions (hopefully she can have many birth mother's by her side and giving her opinions... because not all bmoms are alike at all! and we need to hear from every side. Basically the AP's have a lawyer watching out for them, the birth mother's (even if adoption agency says they might have) have NO one offering unbiased support as they sign away and make the most important decision of there life. They can never take that decision back. The AP's on the other hand are held to nothing by paper, just there word that they will send updates (and how huge the number who then don't)

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You can indicate for a specific purpose 4 it to go to. Such as, saving the unborn from abortion, Recovery programs for rape, helping change your local agency, speaking engagements, being with girls through adoption process, bringing gifts to bmom. Our live radio show (very pricey!) Making the DVD scrapbooks, and so much to do!!! Check out our facebook page and our reviews if you are not sure this is the best charity to invest in  (Because it really is!) Gladney is bad.

One thing is for sure there is definitely a need for this Mission and I'm glad at least I discovered that! All these women want is basically to not be invisible. Us just talking back and forth on the websites and forums just helps so much. And the radio show was great too for helping women. I had to put on hold though due to funds, but I know we must bring that back, It was a live call in show for 3 hours a day! Anyways, the depression/substance abuse among birth mother's (no not because they were addicts before the birth) is horrible, but recently the suicide statistics also hit closer to home and has become recently all too real to ignore. A mother taking her life because she missed her child so much, when all the AP's had to do was respond do her "caseworker's" or her pleas for information? That is just ridiculous and I won't let it happen ever again. It's like losing your baby to death, but you never have any "resolved" feelings about it until the day (if/when) you meet them ever again. Most B moms wish 18 years would come and go already so they can just hug there child and tell them what only their birthmother can tell them... that they "were wanted" more than anything and they "have always been missed since the day you were given away" I mean really, there is no need for all of us walking around this world "half full" (my lingo) when the smallest action by one person can make the glass full (or us whole) Adopted kids, most of them, don't need to grow up with questions about their identity and where they come from, or feelings of worthiness... we are right here in most cases dying to tell them how "worth it" they are and always will be. Just because my daughter was conceived in rape, doesn't mean I love her ANY less than another, I love her MORE and I know she needs at some point to make contact with me as she grows into a woman. (Self identity and self esteem is crucial for women) Without acknowledging or openly talking about her adoption to her parents, I worry for her and her ability to ignore the "ghost of the birth mother" (Joe Soll "Adoption Healing") surrounding them all the time. And I know if they choose to pretend she is not adopted, they will be parents who choose themselves over their own child's happiness. Please let us live at least knowing we did the right thing and they are safe with you. Updates mean the world to us! (source to say that: & every phone call I've ever had with a birth mother) And the Holiday's are hard for some of us, especially Mother's day.

I for one am glad that in 1988 a group of women created "Birth Mother's Day" as the day before Mother's day, every year (the yellow rose as our symbol too. more info on website..) So think about if you know anyone in your life that has been affected in some way by adoption (a lot of folks) and consider remembering them on a day when everyone else seems to have forgotten them. Not only the birth mother's, but the adoptive family, extended family, friends, and of course the adopted child can benefit from a little acknowledgement that it is OK to be a part of adoption and proud of it. It is such a taboo subject today and no one wants to bring it up or remember and they claim they never know what to say if they were to try. Well, now no need to worry. The words are already written for you in our cards (blanks too) and you can't go wrong when the logo on the back shows that the card you bought was used to support Birth Mother's of Adoption... (they will blame us if the wording is not proper or PC enough for them! That's fine...!) There are adoptive parent's who could use a card at any time, adoptive grandparents too. There is the Adoption Day" when the child is brought home, and that is an occasion for cards too. There are "adoption hopefuls" that are waiting any praying for a child to come to them, maybe they've had a few moments of pure disappointment and shame... that could use a card from anyone! There is "National Adoption Day" in November some choose to celebrate. There are cards I've made to give from AP's (adoptive parents) to a BM's (birth moms) OR for BM's to give to AP's, or AP's to give to "prospective birth mothers, OR birth grandparents to a birthmom or birthfather (Yep they can use one too) (When i say birth mother, I also am referring to first mother's ,natural mother or any other name you like to call them). So many cards different occasions and people! (email me if you need help on what to say or a custom made card).

We offer local supportive groups (growing nationwide) made up of women who have been through the similar experiences. We want to prov young women in the future with the knowledge and support that we wish we had from a birth mother. Someone unbiased to talk to us, inform us, guide us, emphasize with us, and answer all our silly questions. One goal of the mission is to someday see every pregnant woman that is considering adoption, to have at least one birth mother mentor.